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I'm Not Worthy Of That," I Said. I Might Be Human Now, But I Understand How Powerful A Heavenly Creature Carter Was. "i Don't Deserve That Much Regard." He Reached Out And Tipped My Chin Up. "you Do, Georgina. And If You Don't Believe Me Now, Then Strive To Be. Live You Life. Be Kind. Love Those You Know. Love Those You Don't Know. Be Worthy Of Your Soul." A Tear Escaped, Rolling Down My Cheek And Probably Messing Up My Mortal Mascara. "thank You, Carter. Thank You For Everything.

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I'm Not Worthy Of That," I Said. I Might Be Human Now, But I Understand How Powerful A Heavenly Creature Carter Was. "i Don't Deserve That Much Regard." He Reached Out And Tipped My Chin Up. "you Do, Georgina. And If You Don't Believe Me Now, Then Strive To Be. Live You Life. Be Kind. Love Those You Know. Love Those You Don't Know. Be Worthy Of Your Soul." A Tear Escaped, Rolling Down My Cheek And Probably Messing Up My Mortal Mascara. "thank You, Carter. Thank You For Everything.

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I Loved You!” He Yelled. He Jumped Up Out Of His Chair So Quickly I Never Saw It Coming. “i Loved You, And You Destroyed Me. You Took My Heart And Ripped It Up. You Might As Well Have Staked Me!” The Change In His Features Also Caught Me By Surprise. His Voice Filled The Room. So Much Grief, So Much Anger. So Unlike The Usual Adrian. He Strode Toward Me, Hand Clasped Over His Chest. “i. Loved. You. And You Used Me The Whole Time.

Dreams, Dreams. I Walk Them; I Live Them. I Delude Myself With Them. It's A Wonder I Can Spot Reality Anymore."... He Turned From Me With A Sigh. "i Need A Drink."... "oh, Good. That'll Fix Everything. I'm Glad In A World Gone Mad, You've Still Got Your Old Standbys."... "what Do You Expect Me To Do?" He Asked. "you Could... You Could... Well, Now That You're Here, You Could Help Us. Plus, This Guy We're Meeting. He's Another Spirit User."... "yeah, That's Exactly What I Want. To Help My Girlfriend Get Her Old Boyfriend Back. " He Turned Away Again, And I Heard Him Mutter, "i Need Two Drinks."

My Nails Dug Into His Back, And He Trailed His Lips Down The Edge Of My Chin, Down The Center Of My Neck. He Kept Going Until He Reached The Bottom Of The Dress’s V-neck. I Let Out A Small Gasp, And He Kissed All Around The Neckline, Just Enough To Tease.

Okay," I Said, Clasping Her Hand. "i Swear It. The Next Time I Do Something Stupid That Might Get Me Killed, You Can Come Along.

Lure Him Out. Send In A 'customer' With A Message From Me Needing To Meet Him. I'm Not The Kind Of Person He Can Ignore-well, That He Used To Not-never Mind. Once He's Out, We Can Get Him To A Place We Choose." I Nodded. "i Can Do That." "no," Said Dimitri. "you Can't." "why Not?" I Asked, Wondering If He Thought It Was Too Dangerous For Me. "because They'll Know You're A Dhampir The Instant They See You. They'll Probably Smell It First. No Strigoi Would Have A Dhampir Working For Him-only Humans." There Was An Uncomfortable Silence In The Car. "no!" Said Sydney. "i Am Not Doing That!

I Get In That Kind Of Situation All The Time, Comrade. It's Not A Big Deal." Anger Replaced My Fear. I Didn't Like Being Treated Like A Child. "stop Calling Me That. You Don't Even Know What You're Talking About." "sure I Do. I Had To Do A Report On The R.s.s.r. Last Year.

Thatʹs A Dangerous Look,ʺ Said Dimitri, Giving Me A Brief Glance Before Returning His Eyes To The Road. ʺwhat Look?ʺ I Asked Innocently. ʺthe One That Says You Just Got Some Idea.

Aubrey, Crouching On A Nearby Counter, Watched Me With Squinty Eyes, Apparently Pondering Why Anyone Would Willingly Immerse Themselves In Water Ever, Let Alone For Extended Periods Of Time.

Who Are These People?" My Mother Asked. "guess," Replied Abe Flatly. "who Would Be Foolish Enough To Break Into Court After Escaping It?

Who Knows More About Male Weakness: You Or Me? Use My Knowledge, Sage.

You Need Me? You Yell. You Want To Leave? We Go. I'll Get You Out Of Here, No Matter What.

You And I Have Been Through Too Much Together. We're Too Close, Too Connected. I Wasn't That Crazy On Spirit When I Said You're My Flame In The Dark. We Chase Away The Shadows Around Each Other. Our Backgrounds Don't Matter. What We Have Is Bigger Than That. I Love You, And Beneath All That Logic, Calculation, And Superstition, I Know You Love Me Too.

Whatever Happened To The Dragon?" I Mustered My Primmest Tone. "he Has A Name, You Know." Adrian Pulled Back And Gave Me A Curious Look. "i Didn't Know, Actually. What'd You Decide On?" "hopper" When Adrian Laughed, I Added "best Rabbit Ever. He'd Be Proud To Know His Name Is Being Passed On." "yes, I'm Sure He Would. Did You Name The Mustang Too?" "i Think You Mean The Ivashkinator." He Stared At Me In Wonder. "i Told You I Loved You, Right? "yes," I Assured Him. "many Times

I Think We Got In More Trouble With Aunt Tasha,ʺ Said Christian. ʺshe Was Kind Of Pissed Off That We Didnʹt Tell Her What Was Going On. I Think She Probably Wanted To Blow Up The Statues Herself.

To My Surprise, I Recognized Dimitri Belikov-rose's Boyfriend-among Those Doing Crowd Control. He Was Easy To Spot Since He Was Almost Always Taller Than Everyone Around Him. Dhampirs Look Very Human, And Even I Could Admit That He Was Pretty Good-looking. There Was A Rugged Handsomeness To Him, And Even In A Still Photograph, I Could See A Fierceness As He Watched The Crowd.

He Leaned Closer To Me And Then Seemed Shocked As He Realized What He Was Doing. "why Would You Do That? Why Would You Do That For Me?

Even Now, Despite Angeline's Watchfulness, She'd Occasionally Oscillate Between Random Topics, Like How Shepherd's Pie Wasn't A Pie At All And Why It Was Pointless For Her To Take Class In Typing When Technology Would Eventually Develop Robot Companions To Do It For Us.

Immortals Are, By Definition, Immortal. End Of Story.

Tawny," I Barked. My Voice Held The Authority Of A Drill Sergeant. She Jumped. "i Am Not Making Out With You Until The End Of Time. You Want To Do This, Then You've Got To Work For It. Now, Take Off Your Clothes." "oh," Said Hugh. "i've Waited Ten Years To Hear You Say That To Another Woman.

Adrian Tipped My Face Up Toward His And Kissed Me. Like Always, The World Around Me Stopped Moving. No, The World Became Adrian, Only Adrian.

Fortunately For Dimitri, I Had His Back.

Nah, You Always Look Good. As For Me … Well, It's Hard To Explain. The Auras Are Getting To Me. There's So Much Sorrow Around Here. You Can't Even Begin To Understand. It Radiates From Everyone On A Spiritual Level. It's Overwhelming. It Makes Your Dark Aura Downright Cheerful.

Do You Know Anything About Silent Films?" "sure," I Said. "the First Ones Were Developed In The Late Nineteenth Century And Sometimes Had Live Musical Accompaniment, Though It Wasn't Until The 1920s That Sound Became Truly Incorporated Into Films, Eventually Making Silent Ones Obsolete In Cinema.

Don't Fight Them Anymore.i'm Going To Go With Them." "no. I Won't Let Them Take You." "you Have To," I Begged. He Was Breathing Hard, Every Part Of Him Braced And Ready To Attack. We Locked Gazes, And A Thousand Messages Seemed To Flow Between Us As The Old Electricity Crackled In The Air.

And Than Suddenly He Was There, Charging Down The Hallway Like Death In A Cowboy Duster.

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You Got Some Cheap Foreign Labor To Protect Lissa?

Feminist,” He Said, Clearly Amused. “next You’ll Be Telling Us You Hate Men.” She Gave Him A Blank Look. “i Only Hate Stupid Men Who Don’t Actually Understand What ‘feminist’ Means.” He Laughed. “you Run Into A Lot Of Men Like That?” “all The Time.” “really?” “even As We Speak, Nick.” “oh No She Didn’t,” Said Peter. I Groaned.

Adrian Was Easily Distractible By Wacky Topics And Shiny Objects.

How Do You Prove We Exist? Maybe We Don't.

Victor Smiled Through The Pain And The Blood. "of Course You Have. I Used To Think Belikov Was The Savage One, But It's Really You, Isn't It? You're The Animal With No Control, No Higher Reasoning Except To Fight And Kill.

Once You Cross Into The Next Loyal Kingdom, However... Be Warned. You May Not Find Such A Warm Reception. The Mimosa Land And Its Residents Are Not Nearly So Accommodating." This Was Warm And Accommodating? That Didn't Bode Well For The Next Kingdom. I Also Found It Sad That A Place Called The Mimosa Land Was Unfriendly. It Sounded Like A Party Waiting To Happen.

Sydney: Ever Had That Happen? Once You Can’t Have Something, You Want It That Much More.” Adrian: “yes. It Happens All The Time.

I Saw Endless Depths Of Brown, The Depths I'd Fallen Into So Many Times. No Red Rings. Dimitri...was Not A Strigoi. And He Was Weeping.

For A Moment, I Was Captivated As I Studied Them Side By Side. My Mother: The Perfect Picture Of Guardian Excellence And Decorum. My Father: Always Capable Of Achieving His Goals, No Matter How Twisted The Means. Uneasily, I Began To Understand How I’d Inherited My Bizarre Personality.

Setting Out Around Midnight, I Couldn't Help Shaking My Head, "we're The Goddamned Hottest Vampire Hunters Ever." I Muttered.

Oh," He Said To Kiyo, Voice Completely Devoid Of Emotion. "i See. It's Your Turn Again.

Don't Get Caught Up In Fashion Games. These Kids Probably Think We're Old, Nark Conformists Or Something, But Really, They're Just Conforming In Their Own Ways. They're Conforming To Nonconformity.

Because It’s Our Duty To God To Protect The Rest Of Humanity From Evil Creatures Of The Night.

Rose,” He Said, Forcibly Trying To Keep A Serious Tone, “i Can Think Of Many Words To Describe You, Sexy And Hot Being At The Top Of The List. You Know What’s Not On The List? Sane.

I Knew You Were A Badass," Continued Adrian. "but I Didn't Realize Just How Much Until I Saw You Dropping Guardians Out There." "does That Mean You're Going To Be Nicer To Me?" I Teased. "i'm Already Nice To You," He Said Loftily. "do You Know How Badly I Want A Cigarette Right Now? But No. I Manfully Suffer Through Nicotine Withdrawal—all For You.

Most Fathers Don't Threaten To Disembowel Their Daughter's Boyfriends." "that's Not True. And Anyway, That's Not What I Actually Said. It Was Much Worse.

He Tilted His Head To The Side, Still Watching Me In That Same, Disconcerting Way. “some Things Are True, Drunk Or Sober. You Should Know That. You Deal In Facts All The Time.” “yeah, But This Isn’t—” I Couldn’t Argue With Him Looking At Me Like That. “i Have To Go. Wait… You Didn’t Take The Cross.” I Held It Out To Him. He Shook His Head. “keep It. I Think I’ve Got Something Else To Help Center My Life.

What Do You Mean It Wasn't Anything? Didn't The Earth Move Or The Planets Align Or Something? -rose To Lissa On Sleeping With Aaron

Jerome Sighed And Set Down His Fork. "are You Still Doing That, Georgie? Don't I Suffer Enough Without Having To Endure The Humiliation Of A Succubus Who Moonlights As A Christmas Elf?" "you Always Said I Should Quit The Bookstore And Find Something Else To Do," I Reminded Him. "yes, But That Was Because I Thought You'd Go On To Do Something Respectable. Like Become A Stripper Or The Mayor's Mistress.

Hey, A Guy Can Hope. I Mean, It’s Not Impossible That A Car Full Of Scantily Clad Sorority Girls Might Break Down Outside And Need My Help.” “that’s True,” I Said. “maybe I Can Put A Sign Out Front That Says, ‘attention All Girls: Free Help Here.’” “‘attention All Hot Girls,’” He Corrected, Straightening Up. “right,” I Said, Trying Not To Roll My Eyes. “that’s An Important Distinction.” He Pointed At Me With The Pool Stick. “speaking Of Hot, I Like That Uniform.” This Time, I Did Roll My Eyes.

You Did What You Did Out Of Love. I Can't Be Mad At You Over That. It Was Stupid, But That's How Love Is. Do You Have Any Idea What I'd Do For You? To Keep You Safe?

Knowing I Wasn't Going Anywhere, I Frantically Searched For Some Way To Help Her. A Dark Figure Caught My Eye. "christian!" I Yelled. He'd Been Staring At Lissa's Retreating Figure But Glanced Up At The Sound Of His Name. One Of My Escorts Shushed Me And Took My Arm. "be Quiet." I Ignored Her. "go After Her," I Called To Christian. "hurry." He Just Sat There, And I Suppressed A Groan. "go, You Idiot!" My Guardians Snapped At Me To Be Quiet Again, But Something Inside Of Christian Woke Up. Springing Up From His Lounging Position, He Tore Off In The Direction Lissa Had Traveled.

It Was Impossible To Get The Dimitri And Tasha Thing Out Of My Head, But At Least Packing And Getting Ready Made Sure I Didn't Devote 100 Percent Of My Brain Power To Him. More Like 95 Percent.

And Hey, If I Keep Loving You, Maybe You'll Eventually Crack And Love Me Too.

People Who Are Crazy Rarely Question Whether They're Crazy.

Oh, Hey. This Looks Promising. " We Came To A Stop Before A High, Barbwire Fence With An Enormous Private Property--no Unauthorized Personnel Allowed Sign On It. The Lettering Was Red, Apparently To Emphasize How Serious They Were. Personally, I Would Have Added A Skull And Crossbones To Really Drive The Message Home.

I Clung To That Spark Of Hope, Nurturing It Into A Small Flame That Chased Some Of The Shadows In My Heart Away.

I Think I’ve Got Something Else To Help Center My Life.

I'll Find You. There Is No Place In This World You Can Hide From Me. I'm Watching. Love, Dimitri

Longing Surged Up Within Me. I Wanted It. Oh God, I Wanted It. I Didn't Want To Hear Jerome Chastise Me For My "all Lowlifes, All The Time" Seduction Policy. I Wanted To Come Home And Tell Someone About My Day. I Wanted To Go Out Dancing On The Weekends. I Wanted To Take Vacations Together. I Wanted Someone To Hold Me When I Was Upset, When The Ups And Downs Of The World Pushed Me Too Far. I Wanted Someone To Love.

You're A Dhampir," I Breathed. "so Are You." He Teased. "yeah, But I Just Thought—" "that I Was Human? Because Of The Bite Marks?" "yeah." I Admitted, No Point In Lying. "we All Have To Survive," He Said "and Dhamphirs Are Good At Figuring Ways Out To.

Since I’m Presuming You Don’t Mean You Finally Bought Him A Leash, Let Me Say Simply That There Is A Big Difference Between Allowing An Animal To Ravage You And Allowing Yourself To Be Ravaged. One Is Common. The Other Is Art. It Is Planned. Crafted, Even. Only Capable Of Being Done By A Master.

Oh My God," He Said. "a Kind Word From Rose Hathaway. I Can Die A Happy Man.

I Have It On Good Authority That Victor's Going To Have Car Trouble. Also That Robert Really Likes Cheerios, So If You Want Some, You're Out Of Luck. He Doesn't Seem Like The Sharing Type.

You Look Confused," Said Adrian. I Shook My Head And Sighed. "i Think I'm Just Overthinking Things." He Nodded Solemnly. "that's Why I Try To Never Do It.

A Different Word Usually Came To My Mind When I Thought Of Yeva, Though It Did Sound A Lot Like “witch.

He's An Angel. Isn't He Supposed To Love Everyone, Even The Damned? Especially When Said Damned Are His Drinking Buddies.

Ah, My Daughter,ʺ He Said. ʺeighteen, And Already Youʹve Been Accused Of Murder, Aided Felons, And Acquired A Death Count Higher Than Most Guardians Will Ever See.ʺ He Paused. ʺi Couldnʹt Be Prouder.

You're Strong—you're So, So Strong. It's Why I Love You.

That's What I Was Supposed To Say.

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Nice Blouse, Sage,” Adrian Told Me, Deadpan. “it Really Brings Out The Khaki In Your Pants.

But The Humans Weren't What Made My Steps Falter As I Walked Through Grass That Had Turned Bright Green With Summer's Touch. It Was Dimitri. Always Dimitri. Dimitri, The Man I Loved. Dimitri, The Strigoi I Wanted To Save. Dimitri, The Monster I'd Most Likely Have To Kill. The Love We'd Shared Always Burned Within Me, No Matter How Often I Told Myself To Move On, No Matter How Much The World Did Think I'd Move On. He Was Always With Me, Always On My Mind, Always Making Me Question Myself.

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