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I'd Been Depressed Before, Of Course. But I'm Talking About Really Depressed. Not Just Feeling A Bit Down Or Sad, A Depression That Has Something To Do With Biorhythms. I'm Talking About The Kind Of Depressed That Floats In Upon You Like A Fog. You Can Feel It Coming And You Can See Where It Is Going To Take You But You Are Powerless, Utterly Powerless To Stop It. I Know Now.

-Alan Cumming

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I'd Been Depressed Before,

Alan Cumming

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I'd Been Depressed Before, Of Course. But I'm Talking About Really Depressed. Not Just Feeling A Bit Down Or Sad, A Depression That Has Something To Do With Biorhythms. I'm Talking About The Kind Of Depressed That Floats In Upon You Like A Fog. You Can Feel It Coming And You Can See Where It Is Going To Take You But You Are Powerless, Utterly Powerless To Stop It. I Know Now.

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