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But My Body Was Telling Its Story. I Have Read A Lot Of Stuff About Cancer. I Needed This Book. I Wish I'd Had This Book When I Had Cancer. I Wanted Someone To Be Talking To Me About "fart Floors." I Wanted Somebody Telling Me What It Was Like To Have A Colostomy Bag. I Felt So Alone. And If You're A Person Who's Been Traumatized By Past Abuse, It's So Potentially Re-traumatizing. You Slip Right Into "oh My God, This Is The Only Person This Has Happened To Before" Mentality: "i'm Especially Bad And I Have Especially Bad Cancer..."

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But My Body Was Telling Its Story. I Have Read A Lot Of Stuff About Cancer. I Needed This Book. I Wish I'd Had This Book When I Had Cancer. I Wanted Someone To Be Talking To Me About "fart Floors." I Wanted Somebody Telling Me What It Was Like To Have A Colostomy Bag. I Felt So Alone. And If You're A Person Who's Been Traumatized By Past Abuse, It's So Potentially Re-traumatizing. You Slip Right Into "oh My God, This Is The Only Person This Has Happened To Before" Mentality: "i'm Especially Bad And I Have Especially Bad Cancer..."

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The Devastation Of Neoliberalism Is So Multi-fold, Whether It's Violence Against Women Or Desperate Economic Inequality Or The Destruction Of The Planet.

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Writing And Giving Voice To What I Am Feeling Makes Me Happy. And Supporting People In Finding Their Voice, Passion, Outrage And Resistance. There Is Nothing Better Than That.

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I Want To Touch You In Real Time Not Find You On Youtube, I Want To Walk Next To You In The Mountains Not Friend You On Facebook.

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In America, We Have A Government That Is Now Run By White Nationalists, By Billionaires, By Incredible Misogynists.

I Think When People Begin To Tell Their Stories, Everything Changes, Because Not Only Are You Legitimized In The Telling Of Your Story And Are You Found, Literally, Like You Matter, You Exist In The Telling Of Your Story, But When You Hear Your Story Be Told, You Suddenly Exist In Community And With Others.

I Am Not Saying People Shouldn't Be Held Accountable For Terrible Acts. But Holding People In Prisons Does Not Necessarily Make Them Responsible Or Accountable. It Makes Them Bad. It Makes Them Evil. It Puts An End To Any Process Of Transformation. It Hardens Them Spiritually And Psychologically.

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Real Security Is Contemplating Death, Not Pretending It Doesn't Exist.

To Love Women, To Love Our Vaginas, To Know Them And Touch Them And Be Familiar With Who We Are And What We Need. To Satisfy Ourselves, To Teach Our Lovers To Satisfy Us, To Be Present In Our Vaginas, To Speak Of Them Out Loud, To Speak Of Their Hunger And Pain And Loneliness And Humor, To Make Them Visible So They Cannot Be Ravaged In The Dark Without Great Consequence, So That Our Center, Our Point, Our Motor, Our Dream, Is No Longer Detached, Mutilated, Numb, Broken, Invisible, Or Ashamed.

I Think Of The Security Of Cages. How Violence, Cruelty, Oppression, Become A Kind Of Home, A Familiar Pattern, A Cage, In Which We Know How To Operate And Define Ourselves.

We Have No Idea How Many Women Were Raped In Wars - Because No One Ever Asked. So Sometimes When People Say Statistics Have Escalated, I Wonder If, That Is True Or Are We Just Hearing About Things Now That We Didn't Hear About Before.

I Am Worried About This Word, This Notion - Security. I See This Word, Hear This Word, Feel This Word Everywhere. Security Check. Security Watch. Security Clearance. Why Has All This Focus On Security Made Me Feel So Much More Insecure? ... Why Are We Suddenly A Nation And A People Who Strive For Security Above All Else?

What I Would Say To Young Women Is: Pay Attention To The Real. Pay Attention To What You're Really Thirsting For. What Do You Really Want? And I Think That's Much Harder To Decipher In A Culture That Has No Interest In It. What Interests Me Is, Are We Going To Wake In Time? Are Human Beings Going To Wake Up To Ourselves, To The Incredible Poverty That's On This Planet, To What We're Doing To The Earth, To What We're Doing To Women, To What We're Doing To Boys? That's What's Important.

The Only Point Of Having Power It Seems To Me Is To Empower Others. The Only Point Of Leadership Is To Inspire.

If I Had A Dream It Would Be To Think, What Would It Be Like For Everybody To Have The Kind Of Health Care I Had? What Would That Feel Like? How Would That Be, To Live In That World? Because I'll Tell You, To Be Really, Really Sick, And To Not Have Money. That Is Terrifying. And In My Opinion, A Travesty.

Well, The Tyranny Of Masculinity And The Tyranny Of Patriarchy I Think Has Been Much More Deadly To Men Than It Has To Women. It Hasn’t Killed Our Hearts. It’s Killed Men’s Hearts. It’s Silenced Them, It’s Cut Them Off.

I Finally Know The Difference Between Pleasing And Loving, Obeying And Respecting. It Has Taken Me So Many Years To Be Okay With Being Different, And With Being This Alive, This Intense.

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I Think To Be Cut Off From Your Heart Is The Greatest Tyranny In The World.

If You Were Around In The '60s, You Already Know That Music And Art And Love Are A Critical Part Of The Revolution. This Is How We Fight.

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Go So Far Away That You Stop Being Afraid Of Not Coming Back.

I Literally Would Go To See Tina Turner Any Opportunity I Had Because Being In The Presence Of Tina Turner Was Like Being In The Presence Of Transformative Energy, And Feminist Transformative Energy. I Remember Thinking To Myself, Whatever This Is, It's Revolution. Whatever This Is, It's Change Embodied In A Woman.

Each Time I Had Five Hours Of The Poison Going Into Me, I Just Pictured Everything That Needed To Be Burned Away. I Pictured Wars, I Pictured The Things My Father Had Done To Me, I Pictured Brutality, And When It Was Over, I Am Light.

If You Just Look At The Fact That A Woman Was Central In Twittering The Cairo Revolution, And Women Were Central To The Tunisian Uprising. Women Are At The Center Of Everything Right Now And Moving Everything Forward. And I Do Think In The Next Year Or Two, We Are Going To See Such A Woman Spring, Such A Rising.

What I'm Really Interested In Is Freedom.

I Can Only Describe It As: The Whole Experience Was Imprinted On My Body. And When I Started To Write It, It Just Came From Such A Very, In The Body Of The Worldvery Physical... It Just Came From My Body. I Don't Know How To Explain It Better Than That. I Guess My Head Was Transmitting It. It Was A Very, Very Physical Experience Writing This Book.

I Would Rate The Fact That I Get To Be Alive A Big Beautiful 10. Satisfaction With Myself - Work In Progress.

I Feel Sometimes With Boys That The Tyranny Of Patriarchy Has Had A Much More Devastating Blow On Boys Than It Has On Anyone. Because They Have Literally Been Forced To Disassociate From Their Hearts.

I Believe In Fierce Love, Pushing The Edge, Calling The Robbers, The Corporates, The Elites, The Pillagers And Insanely Wealthy To Task, Going Whatever Distance We Need To Go Now To Protect Our Earth And Each Other.

If You Are Connected To Your Own Internal Being, It Is Very Hard To Be Screwing And Destroying And Hurting Another Human Being, Because You’ll Be Feeling What They’re Feeling. If You’re Separated, It’s Not A Hard Thing To Do At All.

The Clitoris Is Pure In Purpose. It Is The Only Organ In The Body Designed Purely For Pleasure.

We Have To Bridge And Join Our Struggles And Understand How We Can't Fight Violence Against Women Without Looking At Racism, We Can't Fight Violence Against Women Without Looking At Economic Deprivation Or Climate Change. All These Struggles Are Interconnected.

It Is Almost A Guarantee That In The Pursuit Of Security You Will Become More Insecure. Inherent In The Quest For Security Is Its Undoing.

Guarantees That

I Feel Very Passionate That We Need Cat Scanners In Every Country In The World. There's Not A Cat Scanner In All Of Eastern Congo. People Don't Use The Word "cancer" Because They Don't Get Diagnosed. They Just Die.

Look, You Do Everything In Stages, Right? I Don't Think Everything Happens At Once. There Are So Many Layers We Are Constantly Chipping Away At, Down And Down And Down, Closer And Closer To What Would Be The Body. I Think What Happened With Cancer, Was That I Woke Up Out Of Nine Hours Of Surgery And I Was Body. I Was Just Body.

When I Wrote 'the Good Body,' I Turned 40 And Suddenly Had This Stomach. It Seemed Like The End Of The World. Because I Didn't Value My Body. I Was Constantly Judging It, But I Also Didn't Live In It.

End Of The World

Women Are The Primary Resource Of The Planet. They Give Birth, We Come From Them. They Are Mothers, They Are Visionaries, They Are The Future. If We Can Figure Out How To Make Women Feel Safe And Honor Women, It Would Be Parallel Or Equal To Honoring Life Itself.

I Wake Up Every Day And I Think, 'i'm Breathing! It's A Good Day.'

People Didn't Feel So Much Shame Around It And That They Didn't Feel So Much Humiliation Around It. And The Other Thing That People Have Given Me A Lot Of Feedback About - Something I'm Very Excited About - Is All The Stuff Around Chemo As An "empathetic Warrior."

The Minute Someone Tells You You Have Cancer, It's Kind Of Like You Die. You Really Do Die. It's Like You Get That You're Mortal.

It Really Occurred To Me At A Certain Point: Women Have Not Been Embodied. Feminism Has Not Been Embodied. It Hasn't Gotten Into Us In A Way Where It Is So Undeniable That There Is Nothing To Prove. Do You Know What I Mean? That We Are So In Our Feminist Skin, So To Speak, That We Are That World Now.

I Think We Need To Teach Pleasure. What Beautiful Touch Means. What Reciprocity Means. What Being Connected And What Intimacy Means. Boys Get Out There At A Young Age And The Performance Posturing Is So Great And Ends Up Being Hard And Aggressive.

I Think The Human Species Is Very Suicidal.

I Think To Be Honest, That Being Is Inside. I Meet That Being In So Many People That I Meet Everywhere In The World And When I Do Meet That Being, In Other People, What I Want To Ask Is "how Do We Keep Opening Ourselves So That We Can Become As Vulnerable And As Willing To Live In The Deepest Complexity And Ambiguity And Truth That We Can?

This Artistic Uprising We Had The Other Night In Washington Square Park: There Was Poetry, There Was Dance, There Was Song, There Was Spoken Word; And People Left Feeling So Inspired And So Energised. We Have To Get Ourselves Out Of This Syndrome Of Trauma And Being Re-traumatised. Art Releases This Energy. It Exposes Us To Wonder Again, And Magic Again, And Ambiguity - All The Things We Need To Really Keep Going And Fighting And Resisting In These Times.

When You Bring Consciousness To Anything, Things Begin To Shift.

I Think That Anytime You Get Clear About What Your Mission Is Or What Your Focus Wants To Be, Things Start To Come Together In Your Life.

Our Bodies Are Critical. If I Learned Anything From Getting Really Bad Cancer Seven Years Ago, It's That Your Body Is What You've Got. If You Don't Take Care Of It, You're Not Going To Be Here.

I Think Culture Is Where Things Change In Us Deeply. But Right Now, I Think That People Are Very Traumatised. They Are Very Scared. Having Grown Up In A House With A Perpetrator Who Was Violent Every Day And Terrorising Every Day, I Feel Like That This Country Is Suddenly Very Much Like The House And The Family I Grew Up In. Every Day We Are Glued To Our Phones, Glued To Our Television; "what Is This Psychopath Going To Do Next? How Will He Embarrass Us? Who Will He Bully Or Hurt Or Humiliate Today? It's So Easy To Get Locked Into A Syndrome Where The Perpetrator Is Ruling Your Life.

I Despise Charity. It Gives Crumbs To A Few And Silences The Others.

Women Not Only Get Violated, But Then We Take On The Struggle To End It Too... As A Man, How Could The Destruction Of Women Be Anything To You But Devastating? Think About The Fact That The Women Being Hurt Are Your Mothers, Daughters, Sisters.

Unless Men Are Active Allies, We'll Never End Violence Against Women And Girls.

I Think One Of The Problems With The Capitalist Mainstream Is This: No Matter What You Create To Respond Or Resist It They Will Buy It.

Success Itself Doesn't Give You Happiness. It's What You Do With Your Success That Gives You Happiness.

You Have To Give To The World The Thing That You Want The Most, In Order To Fix The Broken Parts Inside You.

If The Theatre Has Taught Me Anything, It's That When Things Change In The Body, In The Body Politic, In The Body Of The World, In The Body Of The Earth, In The Body Of The Person, There's Change. You Never Go Back.

I Think We Are Seeing The Absolute And Utter Collapse Of Male Politicians In This [u.s] Country And We're Seeing What The Underpinnings Of The Power Structure Are, Which Are Sexist Underpinnings.

My Relationship To The Desecration Of The Earth Was Very Theoretical And Intellectual Until I Got Sick. I Could Never Watch Anything About Polar Bears Dying Or The Death Of Bees. There Were Certain Things I Knew I Couldn't Go Near Because They Were Too Devastating. But I Don't Think Until I Got Cancer Did I Get It In My Body, What Was Happening To The Earth. I Finally Went: "oh! Earth! Organism!"

It Seems To Me There's This Tyranny That's Not Accidental Or Incidental, To Make Women Feel Compelled To Look Like Somebody They're Not. I Think The Effort Is Being Made To Get Us To Turn Our Time And Attention To This Instead Of Important Political Issues.

I Think So Much Of My Early Life, Even Though I Grew Up White And Middle Class, I Was Completely Shattered By The Horrifically Violent Atmosphere I Grew Up In. I Am A Consequence Of Violence. That Opened A Door To Many Realities That I Would Not Have Experienced Had I Not Survived What I Did.

Once You Are Diagnosed With Cancer, Time Changes. It Both Speeds Up Insanely And Stops Altogether.

There's An Underlying Puritanicalness In America That Is Not That Different To The Prudishness Of Britain - It Just Manifests Itself In Different Ways.

Freedom, That's The Kind Of Power I'm Interested In. When We Help Each Other Get Free, Then It's Not About Anybody Being On Top Or Anybody Being On The Bottom. It's About Being Together, In A Community.

I Think Violence Against Women In America Has Become Ordinary - It's Been Made Absolutely Acceptable.

The Cancer In Me Became An Awareness Of The Cancer That Is Everywhere. The Cancer Of Cruelty, The Cancer Of Carelessness, The Cancer Of Greed.

There Were Momentary Visitations. I Was A Visitor, Not An Inhabitant. I Think I Say That At The Beginning Of The Book: "i Have Made Visits To The Earth In My Body, But It's Always Been As A Visitor."

If You Are Divided From Your Body, Then You Are Divided From The Body Of The World.

The Fact That Women Have Been Moving Forward, That A Woman Was Running For President, That We Had A Black President - I Think There Was, Without A Doubt, A Whitelash And A Complete Backlash Against The Liberation Of Women, Against The Power Of People Of Color.

I Have Been A Depressed Person Most Of M Life. I Was Always In The Throes Of Self-hatred.

Depressed Person

When You Listen To Other Women’s Stories, You Begin To Understand Your Own Better, And You Begin To Find Ways Back Through And With Each Other.

Dancing Insists We Take Up Space, And Though It Has No Set Direction, We Go There Together. Dance Is Dangerous, Joyous, Sexual, Holy, Disruptive, And Contagious And It Breaks The Rules. It Can Happen Anywhere, At Anytime, With Anyone And Everyone, And It's Free. Dance Joins Us And Pushes Us To Go Further And That Is Why It's At The Center Of One Billion Rising.

I Think That's Part Of The Whole Denial And Suicidal Mechanism [ Of The Human's Race] Right "oh My God, The House Is On Fire." You Sleep Through The Smoke.

What I Would Argue Is That Real Spirituality Is The Ability To Keep Encountering Two Opposite Thoughts At The Same Time And Still Maintain Some Kind Of Morality And Perspective In The World. It Is Not The Elimination Of One Side Of The Equation Or The Elimination Of What You Don't Like; It Is The Investigation Of Everything.

It Seems To Me That We Spend An Inordinate Amount Of Time And Attention On Fixing Ourselves When We Could Really Be Directing That Out To Serving Others.

I Think The World Is Always Improving And Always Not Improving. I Think That Both Are Simultaneously Happening All The Time. I Don't Think It's One Motion Unfortunately - I Wish We Could Say It's Better, Better, Better - But I Think It's Better, Bad, Better, Bad - You Know?

I Think What's Been True Across The Board Is The Universal Patriarchy, The Fear Of Women Ever Being Born Back Into Complete Sexuality And Life-force. This Manifests Itself In Different Cultural Variances, But That's Really What's Going On Everywhere.

For Many Years Now, I Feel Like My Own Body Struggle Has Been Linked And Connected With Women I Meet In The World. I Think We're In This Together.

When You Rape, Beat, Maim, Mutilate, Burn, Bury, And Terrorize Women, You Destroy The Essential Life Energy On The Planet.

…find Freedom, Aliveness, And Power Not From What Contains, Locates, Or Protects Us, But From What Dissolves, Reveals, And Expands Us.

Danger Lurks When People Are Dissociated And Detached From Their Own Story Or Feelings.

You Will Touch This Joy And You Will Suddenly Know It Is What You Were Looking For Your Whole Life, But You Were Afraid To Even Acknowledge The Absence Because The Hunger For It Was So Encompassing.

What Neo-capitalism Does So Brilliantly Is That It's Always Subdividing And Dividing, So That People Are Never Able To Be Joined In Their Numbers And Strength In A Unified Way. That Is Exactly What We Have To Overcome.

For Me, So Much Of My Life Has Been This Attempt To Find My Way Back Into My Body. I Tried Various Forms, From Promiscuity, To Eating Disorders, To Performance Art. And I Think It Wasn't Until I Got Cancer, Where I Was Suddenly Being Pricked And Ported And Chemoed And Operated On, That I Suddenly Just Became Body. I Was Just A Body. And It Was In That, In That Finally Landing In Myself That I Really Discovered The World In My Body.

We Can't Walk Where We Want To Walk Or Be Who We Want To Be Or Dress The Way We Want To Dress Or Go Anywhere Any Time Of Day. I Am Talking About The Freedom That Comes With Just Knowing That You're Okay, And That You Have Value And You Have Identity, And You Don't Have To Keep Proving Yourself.

The Mechanism Of Violence Is What Destroys Women, Controls Women, Diminishes Women And Keeps Women In Their So-called Place.

I Believe In Irony. And If V-day Has Taught Me Anything, It's That If You Go Out With Artistic, Outrageous Irony And Humor, People Are Drawn To It.

I Think We Have Made Progress. There's No Doubt About It, We Have Moved Forward. But There's Some Essential, Core Thing That Has Not Been Deconstructed. And I'm Telling You, It's Connected To The Body. I Know It Is.

People Need To Dance. I'd Say Dance At Least Twice A Day. That's How To Get Your Energy Up And How You Keep You Revolutionary Spirit Going. It's Emma Goldman Who Said, "any Revolution Where I Can't Dance Is Not My Revolution." I Think That's The Revolution We Want.

Why Are Women Immobile? Because So Many Feel Like They’re Waiting For Someone To Say, "you’re Good, You’re Pretty, I Give You Permission."

You Have Visits, Then You Have Disappearances. You Enter, Then You Exit. You Come, You Go. It Would Be So Great If You Could Just Get To Human Enlightenment On A Linear Path.

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