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I Was Depressed, But That Was A Side Issue. This Was More Like Closing Up Shop, Or, Say, Having A Big Garage Sale, Where You Look At Everything You've Bought In Your Life, And You Remember How Much It Meant To You, And Now You Just Tag It For A Quarter And Watch 'em Carry It Off, And You Don't Care. That's More Like How It Was.

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I Was Depressed, But

Jane Smiley

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I Was Depressed, But That Was A Side Issue. This Was More Like Closing Up Shop, Or, Say, Having A Big Garage Sale, Where You Look At Everything You've Bought In Your Life, And You Remember How Much It Meant To You, And Now You Just Tag It For A Quarter And Watch 'em Carry It Off, And You Don't Care. That's More Like How It Was.

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