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I Thought That If I Accomplished Enough, That Somehow I Would Be Let Off The Hook In The Future. Like I Didn’t Have To Keep Striving And Achieving Because I Had Done That Already, And It Would Add Up To Being Enough.

-Portia De Rossi

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Portia De Rossi

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I Thought That If I Accomplished Enough, That Somehow I Would Be Let Off The Hook In The Future. Like I Didn’t Have To Keep Striving And Achieving Because I Had Done That Already, And It Would Add Up To Being Enough.

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