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I Had Become Conscious Of My Physicality, Aware Of My Presence And Open To The Ugly Truths Of The World. At The Age Of Thirteen, I Realised That There Was A Danger In Innocence And Beauty, And I Could Not Live With Both.

-Tracey Emin

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I Had Become Conscious

Tracey Emin

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I Had Become Conscious Of My Physicality, Aware Of My Presence And Open To The Ugly Truths Of The World. At The Age Of Thirteen, I Realised That There Was A Danger In Innocence And Beauty, And I Could Not Live With Both.

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