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Why Do You Do These Things To Yourself? Not Just What You Did To The Window, But The Way You Talked To Clary. What Are You Punishing Yourself For? You Can't Help How You Feel.

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Why Do You Do These Things To Yourself? Not Just What You Did To The Window, But The Way You Talked To Clary. What Are You Punishing Yourself For? You Can't Help How You Feel.

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Everything We Need To Know Is Locked Up In Your Head, Under Those Pretty Red Curls." Clary Reached Up To Touch Her Hair Protectively. "i Dont Think-" "so What Are You Going To Do?" Simon Asked Sharply. "cut Her Head Open To Get At It?

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What Are You? The Voice Came From Nowhere. It Was In The Room. It Was Outside. It Was In Magnus's Head. "a Warlock," Magnus Answered. "and What Are You?" We Are Many. "please Do Not Say You Are A Legion. Someone's Taken That." Do You Make Mirth From Mundane Scriptures, Warlock? "just Breaking The Ice

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He Was Staring Straight Ahead, Still Breathing Hard. “i Have Something I Want To Give You.” “i Gathered That.” At That He Jerked His Gaze Back To Hers And Almost Reluctantly Grinned. “not That.

One Of The Heavy Marble Busts That Lined The Higher Shelves Had Slid Free And Was Falling Toward Her; She Ducked Out Of Its Way, And It Hit The Floor Inches From Where She'd Been Standing, Leaving A Sizable Dent In The Floor. A Second Later Jace's Arms Were Around Her And He Was Lifting Her Off Her Feet. She Was Too Surprized To Struggle As He Carried Her Over To The Broken Window And Dumped Her Unceremoniously Out Of It.

Are You Going To Wolf Out And Eat Me Now?" "certainly Not, You'd Be Stringy And Hard To Digest." "but Kosher." "i'll Be Sure To Point Any Jewish Lycanthropes In Your Direction.

So You Really Cant Think Of Anyone Else Who Might Want To Kill You?"asked Jace. "unlike In Your Case There Arent Actually All That Many People Who Dislike Me."said Simon.

That Might Be Nice, An Extra Pair Of Arms," Jace Said. "handy In A Fight." "not If They're Growing Out Of Your..." Dorothea Paused And Smiled, Not Without Malice. "neck.

She Realized That This Scarred, Sarcastic Boy, Was Gentle With The Things He Loved.

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I Can't - I'll Chop Off My Own Foot!" "if You're Going To Chop Off Anyone's Foot, Chop Off Benedict's," Will Muttered.

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This One Incident I Will Not Allow You To Shrug Off!" "i Wasn't Planning To," Jace Said. "i Can't Shrug Anything Off. My Shoulder's Dislocated." -hodge & Jace, Pg.296-

Clary Wondered How Many Boyfriends She'd Turned Into Rats By Accident. -clary To Isabelle, Pg.245-

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There Was An Electric Anger In His Gaze, And A Sort Of Challenge That Made Simon Long To Hit Him With Something Heavy. Like A Pickup Truck.

There Was Something About Jace, Though, That Made Her Want To Push Him, Crack That Shell Of Cynicism And Make Him Admit Her Believed Something, Felt Something, Cared About Anythinng At All.

If It's The Lack Of Forbidden You're Worried About. You Could Still Forbid Me To Do Things." "what Kind Of Things?" She Felt Him Smile Against Her Mouth. "things Like This.

We Spoke Of How To Say Good-bye,” Jem Said. “when Jonathan Bid Farewell To David, He Said, ‘go In Peace, For As Much As We Have Sworn, Both Of Us, Saying The Lord Be Between Me And Thee, Forever.’ They Did Not See Each Other Again, But They Did Not Forget. So It Will Be With Us. When I Am Brother Zachariah, When I No Longer See The World With My Human Eyes, I Will Still Be In Some Part The Jem You Knew, And I Will See You With The Eyes Of My Heart.

Stop It," He Hissed In Her Ear. "you'll Just Make It Worse For Yourself. It's Better If You Don't Look." "like You Do?" She Hissed Back. "shutting Your Eyes And Pretending Something's Not Happening Doesn't Make It Not True, Jace. You Ought To Know Better-

It Is Not Easy To Be Different, And Even Less So To Be Unique.

She Had Imagined Jace Leaping From The Bed In Astonishment And Gasping Something Like "egad!" This Didn't Happen-largely, She Suspected, Because Jace Had Seen Much Stranger Things In His Life, And Also Because Nobody Used The Word "egad!" Anymore. His Eyes Widened, Though.

Jace's Eyes Sparkled, But He Said Calmly, "not At All. The Silent Brothers Can Help Her Retrieve Her Memories." "you Hate The Silent Brothers," Protested Isabelle. "i Don't Hate Them," Said Jace Candidly."i'm Afraid Of Them. It's Not The Same Thing." "i Thought You Said They Were Libarians," Said Clary. "they Are Librarians." Simon Whistled. "those Must Be Some Killer Late Fees.

Under His Dripping Hair, He Was As White As Parchment, His Hands Clenched At His Sides So Tightly That They Were Shaking. It Seemed Clear That Some Terrible Turmoil Was Ripping Him Apart From The Inside Out.

Jem Put The Full Force Of Himself Into Each Smile, So That He Seemed To Be Smiling With His Eyes, His Heart, His Whole Being.

Jace Laughed, That Soft Rich Sound Clary Loved So Much. "i'm Warning You, That Jacket Is Sexy. The Institute Could Go Up In Sexy, Sexy Flames.

They Landed At Simon's Feet. "take Your Clothes And Go!" Isabelle Shouted.

I Know What I'm Asking. For You To Find A Needle In - God, Not Even A Haystack. A Needle In A Tower Of Other Needles." "plunge Your Hand In A Tower Of Needles," Said Magnus, "and You Are Likely To Cut Yourself Badly. Are You Sure This Is What You Want?

I've Met An Attractive Weasel Or Two In My Time. He Looks More Like A Rat." -pg.170-

It Was Like A Bad Movie Except He Didn’t Actually Twirl His Mustache.” -jace To Maryse About Valentine, Pg.122-

There Is Nothing Quite Like The Moral Absolutism Of The Young." -hodge

Moral Absolutism

I Kick Kittens. I Made Rude Gestures At Nuns.

He Bent To Put His Cheek Against Hers. His Breath Against Her Ear Made Her Shudder With Each Deliberately Spoken Word. "i Have Wanted To Do This," He Said, "every Moment Of Every Hour Of Every Day That I Have Been With You Since The Day I Met You.

Poor You, You Have Two Cute Girls Vying For Your Love. Your Life Is Hard.

Jordan Doesn't Really Care About The Blood," Simon Said Now. "his Whole Thing Is About Me Being Comfortable With What I Am. Get In Touch With Your Inner Vampire, Blah, Blah." Clary Slid In Next To Him Onto The Bed And Hugged A Pillow. "is Your Inner Vampire Different From Your...outer Vampire?" "definitely. He Wants Me To Wear Midriff-baring Shirts And A Fedora. I'm Fighting It." Clary Smiled Faintly. "so Your Inner Vampire Is Magnus?

Magnus Gazed Upon Camille. "some Of My Fondest Memories Include Lashings Of Cream And Beautiful Women.

Ma'am," Magnus Said, Advancing. "i Must Counsel You Not To Exit The Carriage While A Demon-slaying Is In Progress.

She Closed Her Eyes And Jumped. For A Moment She Felt Herself Hang Suspended, Free Of Everything. Then Gravity Took Over, And She Plunged Toward The Floor. Instinctively She Pulled Her Arms And Legs In, Keeping Her Eyes Squeezed Shut. The Cord Pulled Taut And She Rebounded, Flying Back Up Before Falling Again. As Her Velocity Slowed, She Opened Her Eyes And Found Herself Dangling At The End Of The Cord, About Five Feet Above Jace. He Was Grinning. 'nice', He Said. 'as Graceful As A Falling Snowflake.

Jem: I Know What You're Thinking. Tessa:i Don't Think You Do. You're Think, If They Call This Damp Nastiness Summer, What Must Winter Be Like? You'd Be Surprised. Winter's Actually Much The Same. It's Spring That's Really Lovely. Tessa:is It? Jem:no. It's Actually Quite Foggy And Wet As Well.

...in Paris She Found Magnus, Who Was Living In A Garret Apartment And Paiting, An Occupation For Which He Had No Aptitude Whatsoever. He Let Her Sleep On A Mattress By The Window, And In The Night, When She Woke Up Screaming For Will, He Came And Put His Arms Around Her, Smelling Of Turpentine. "the First One Is Always The Hardest," He Said. "the First?" "the First One You Love Who Dies," He Said. "it Gets Easier, After.

But How Do They Get Inside?" "they Fly," Jace Said, And Indicated The Upper Floors Of The Building. [...] "we Don't Fly," Clary Felt Impelled To Point Out. "no," Jace Agreed. "we Don't Fly. We Break And Enter." He Started Across The Street Toward The Hotel. "flying Sounds Like More Fun," Clary Said, Hurrying To Catch Up With Him. "right Now Everything Sounds Like More Fun.

They Confused Beauty With Innocence And Harmlessness.

I Only Count The Hours That Shine.

Piano Keys Jangled As He Got To His Feet. "our Own Sleeping Beauty. Who Finally Kissed You Awake?" "nobody. I Woke Up On My Own." "was There Anyone With You?

Right. Vampires. But How Do They Get Inside?" "they Fly" ... "we Dont Fly," Clary Felt Impelled To Point Out. "no," Jace Agreed. "we Dont Fly. We Break And Enter." ... "flying Sounds Like More Fun." -clary & Jace, Pg.258-

If You're Texting Magnus To Say 'i Think U R Kewl,' I'm Going To Kill You." "who's Magnus?" Max Inquired. "he's A Warlock," Said Alec. "a Sexy, Sexy Warlock," Isabelle Told Max, Ignoring Alec's Look Of Total Fury. "but Warlocks Are Bad," Protested Max, Looking Baffled. "exactly," Said Isabelle.

Scott Noticed Will Staring At It And Grinned. "like What You See?" Woolsey Scott Asked. "i Do Enjoy These Surprise Midnight Declarations. Go Along, Have At It.

He Is Bound To You,” Said The Queen. “but Does He Love You?

Clary Sat Back. "you Don't Just Get To Say No." "this Plan Involves Me! I Get To Say No! No." "simon -" Simon Patted The Seat Beside Him As If Someone Were Sitting There. "let Me Introduce You To My Good Friend No.

I Don't Do What I'm Told, But I Might Do What You Want If You Ask Me Nicely.

Magnus Looked At Her Meditatively. 'i Think,' He Said, 'there Isn't Much That Jace Wouldn't Do For You, If You Asked Him.' Clary Opened Her Mouth And Then Shut It Again. She Thought Of The Way Magnus Had Always Seemed To Know How Alec Felt About Jace, How Simon Felt About Her. Her Feelings For Jace Must Be Written On Her Face Even Now, And Magnus Was An Expert Reader. She Glanced Away.

Dudes," He Said, "do Not Follow Other Dudes To The Bathroom." Isabelle Sighed. "latent Homosexual Panic Will Do You In Every Time

And So What? I Just Killed A Demon In My Own House, And You're Going To Be A Dickhead About It Because I'm Not Some Spoiled-rotten Rich Brat Like You And Your Sister?" Alec Looked Astonished. "what Did You Call Me?

I Can't Tell Them What To Do!" "why Not?" The Other Girl Demanded. "honestly, Clary, If You Don't Start Utilizing A Bit Of Your Natural Feminine Superiority, I Just Don't Know What I'll Do With You.

It's A Bit Of The Very Last Verse From Paradiso- Dante's Paradise. 'my Will And My Desire Were Turned By Love, The Love That Moves The Sun And The Other Stars.' Dante Was Trying To Explain Faith, I Thnk, As An Overpowering Love, And Maybe It's Blasphemous, But That's How I Think Of The Way That I Love You. You Came Into My Life And Suddenly I Had One Truth To Hold On To- That I Loved You, And You Loved Me.

I Know There Are Monsters On This Earth,' Said Tessa. 'you Cannot Tell Me Otherwise. I Have Seen Them.

Actually," Said Jace, "i Prefer To Think That I'm A Liar In A Way That's Uniquely My Own.

How Could You Be Heartbroken And Happy At The Same Time?

Stop It." Isabelle Tapped A Booted Foot In The Shallow Water At The Lake's Edge. "both Of You. In Fact, All Three Of You. If We Don't Stick Together In The Seelie Court, We're Dead." "but I Haven't-," Clary Started. "maybe You Haven't, But The Way You Let Those Two Act..." Isabelle Indicated The Boys With A Disdainful Wave Of Her Hand. "i Can't Tell Them What To Do!" "why Not?" The Other Girl Demanded. "honestly, Clary, If You Don't Start Utilizing A Bit Of Your Natural Feminine Superiority, I Just Don't Know What I'll Do With You.

Is He Dead?" He Inquired. "he Looks Dead." "no," Snapped Maryse. "he's Not Dead." "have You Checked? I Could Kick Him If You Want.

Maybe That Was Why She Couldn't Cry, She Realized, Staring Dry-eyed At The Ceiling. Because What Was The Point In Crying When There Was No One There To Comfort You? And What Was Worse, When You Couldn't Even Comfort Yourself?

[magnus] Was Wearing Canary-yellow Pajamas, And On His Feet Were Green Slippers With Alien Faces, Complete With Sproingy Atennae.

Look Well On This, My Son," Said The Green-skinned Man, "for One Day I Shall Rule A Clockwork Kingdom Of Such Beings, And You Shall Be Its Prince.

No Fewer Than Four Of My Esteemed Elders Told Me I Was On No Account To Ever Converse With You, So I Vowed That I Would Know You. My Name Is Edmund Herondale. May I Ask Your Name? They Reffered To You Only As 'that Disgraceful One-warlock Show.

It's Always Better To Live The Truth Than To Live A Lie.

I Adore Wilkie Collins,” Tessa Cried. “oh—armadale! And The Woman In White … Are You Laughing At Me?” “not At You,” Said Will, Grinning, “more Because Of You. I’ve Never Seen Anyone Get So Excited Over Books Before. You’d Think They Were Diamonds.” “well, They Are, Aren’t They? Isn’t There Anything You Love Like That? And Don’t Say ‘spats’ Or ‘lawn Tennis’ Or Something Silly.” “good Lord,” He Said With Mock Horror, “it’s Like She Knows Me Already.

Tessa Had Begun To Tremble. This Is What She Had Always Wanted Someone To Say. What She Had Always, In The Darkest Corner Of Her Heart, Wanted Will To Say. Will, The Boy Who Loved The Same Books She Did, The Same Poetry She Did, Who Made Her Laugh Even When She Was Furious. And Here He Was Standing In Front Of Her, Telling Her He Loved The Words Of Her Heart, The Shape Of Her Soul. Telling Her Something She Had Never Imagined Anyone Would Ever Tell Her. Telling Her Something She Would Never Be Told Again, Not In This Way. And Not By Him. And It Did Not Matter. "it's Too Late", She Said.

Be What You Are. No One Who Really Loves You Will Stop

You Know, There's A Reason We Can Remember," [catarina] Said More Softly. "that's Much Easier When Your Life Has An Expiration Date." "it May Be More Important For Us.

Come With Me." "come With You? To Pandemonium? To The Void? And Here I Thought That My Invitation To Summer In New Jersey Was The Worst I Had Ever Received.

Actually," Clary Said, "i Think He Stayed Because Of Me." Jace's Glaze Flicked Up To Hers With A Flash Of Gold. "because Of You? Hoping For Another Hot Date, Was He?" Clary Felt Herself Flush. "no. And Our Date Wasn't Hot. In Fact, It Wasn't Even A Date. Anyway, That's Not The Point. When He Came Into The Hall, He Kept Trying To Get Me To Go Outside With Him So We Could Talk. He Wanted Something From Me. I Just Don't Know What." "or Maybe He Just Wanted You," Jace Said. Seeing Clary's Expression, He Added, "not That Way. I Mean Maybe He Wanted To Bring You To Valentine.

And Indeed It Was, The Arrow Still Protruding From Its Wet, Grayish Skin, Humping Its Body Along With Incredible Speed. A Flick Of Its Tail Caught The Edge Of A Statue, Sending It Flying Into The Dry Ornamental Pool, Where It Shattered Into Dust. “by The Angel, It Just Crushed Sophocles,” Noted Will. “has No One Respect For The Classics These Days?

You Swore To Stay With Me,” He Said. “when We Made Our Oath, As Parabatai. Our Souls Are Knit. We Are One Person, James.” “we Are Two People,” Said Jem. “two People With A Covenant Between Us.” Will Knew He Sounded Like A Child, But He Could Not Help It. “a Covenant That Says You Must Not Go Where I Cannot Come With You.” “until Death,” Jem Replied Gently. “those Are The Words Of The Oath. ‘until Aught But Death Part Thee And Me.’ Someday, Will, I Will Go Where None Can Follow Me, And I Think It Will Be Sooner Rather Than Later.

I Suspect He's Sweet On Sophie And Doesn't Like To See Her Work Too Hard.' Tessa Was Glad To Hear It. She'd Felt Awful About Her Reaction To Sophie's Scar, And The Thought That Sophie Had A Male Admirer - And A Handsome One Like That- Eased Her Conscience Slightly. 'perhaps He's In Love With Agatha', She Said. 'i Hope Not. I Intend To Marry Agatha Myself. She May Be A Thousand Years Old, But She Makes An Incomparable Jam Tart. Beauty Fades, But Cooking Is Eternal.

I Can't Believe He Took You To An Actual Resteraunt. I Assumed His Idea Od A Date Would Be Making You Watch Him Play World Of Warcraft With His Nerd Friends.

You Are Aware That The Sale Of Liquore Is Currently Against The Law." Edgar Went On, "but I Suppose That Is Why You Enjoy It." "everyone Should Have A Hobby Or Two," Magnus Said. "mine Just Happen To Include Illegal Trade, Drinking And Carousing. I've Heard Of Worse." "we Tend Not To Have Time For Hobbies." Shadowhunters. Always Better Than You.

You Promise Me, He Said. That You Love Him. Enough To Marry Him And Make Him Happy.

Where There Is Love, There Is Often Also Hate. They Can Exist Side By Side.

Lawful Good To Lawful Evil!" Said Simon, Pleased. "he's Quoting Dungeons And Dragons," Said Clary. "ignore Him.

He Remembered Simon Warning Him, With Wryness, That Clary Had The Nuclear Bomb Of Boyfriends.

Without Him, [nate] She Was Completely Alone In The World. There Was No One At All For Her. No One In The World Who Cared Whether She Lived Or Died. Sometimes The Horror Of That Thought Threatened To Overwhelm Her And Plunge Her Down Into Bottomless Darkness.

He Strode To The Wall And Tore Aside One Of The Velvet Hangings. “you Want To Tell Me What This Is?” He Demanded. “it’s A Door, Jace,” Said Clary.

Oh, Do You Have A Tale Of Two Cities?" "that Silly Thing? Men Going Around Getting Their Heads Chopped Off For Love? Ridiculus." Will Unpeeled Himself From The Door And Made His Way Toward Tessa Where She Stood By The Bookshelves. He Gestured Expansively At The Vast Number Of Volumes All Around Him. "no, Here You'll Find All Sorts Of Advice About How To Chop Off Someone Else's Head If You Need To; Much More Useful.

You Don't Believe Me?" Jace Asked. "fine. Go Ahead. Kiss Me Right Now." Alec Stared At Him In Horror. "exactly. Despite My Staggering Good Lucks, You Actually Don't Like Me That Way.

Endless Hope, Endless Disappointment.

I Want My People To Be Protected, Strong, And Not To Be Driven Into Corners Until They Either Become Killers Or Are Killed!

Dead Bodies Didn't Resemble Unconscious Ones; It Was As If You Could Sense That Something Had Fled From Them, That Some Essential Spark Was Now Missing.

And I Don’t See How Sebastian Can Be All That Fond Of Jace, Either. He Was Horribly Jealous Of Him All His Life. He Thought Jace Was Valentine’s Favorite,” Added Clary. “not To Mention,” Magnus Noted, “that Jace Killed Him. That Would Put Anyone Off.

She Was Afraid You'd Freak Out? Start Seeing Demons In The White House?

If There Was One Thing She Was Learning From All This, It Was How Easy It Was To Lose Everything You Had Always Thought You'd Have Forever.

Filters Are For Cigarrettes And Coffee," Simon Muttered Under His Breath As They Went Inside. "two Things I Could Use Right Now, Incidentally.

No Matter What The Price Offered, No Downworlder Would Fail To Listen To A Warning Against One Of The Nephilim.

You've Always Been What You Are. That's Not New. What You'll Get Used To Is Knowing It.

Her Throat Ached: Adoration, Heartbreak, In Equal Measure. “kiss Me,” She Said. “please.

I Take Your Hand, Brother, So That You May Go In Peace. Will Had Opened His Blue Eyes That Never Lost Their Colour Over All The Passing Years, And Looked At Jem And Then Tessa, And Smiled, And Died, With Tessa's Head On His Shoulder And And His Hand In Jem's.

So I Lied To You Last Night. I Said That I Just Wanted One Night With You. But I Want Every Night With You.

The Demon Bared Its Greenish Fangs. "this Is My True Form. An Ugly Surprise For You, I Suppose." "i Daresay It's An Improvement," Said Will. "you Weren't Much To Look At Before, And At Least The Horns Are Dramatic.

This Was A Voice That Drew Out Memories Stretched Thin By Years Of Recollection, Like Paper Unfolded And Refolded Too Many Times. A Voice That Brought Back, Like A Wave, The Memory Of Another Time On This Bridge, A Night So Long Ago, Everything Black And Silver And The River Rushing Away Under Her Feet.

This Time Clary Concentrated, Trying To Focus Her Mind On Simon-the Simon-ness Of Him, The Shape Of The Way He Thought, The Feeling Of Hearing His Voice, The Sence Of Him Close. His Whispers, His Secrets, The Way He Made Her Laugh. 'so', She Thought Conversationally, 'now That I'm In Your Mind, Wnat To See Some Naked Mental Pictures Of Jace?' Simon Jumped. "i Heard That! And, No.

I Don’t Want To Be Nephilim,” Said Jace. “i Want To Be Something Else. Stronger, Faster, Better Than Human. But Different. Not Subservient To The Laws Of An Angel Who Couldn’t Care Less About Us. Free.” He Ran His Hand Through A Curl Of Her Hair. “i’m Happy Now, Clary. Doesn’t That Make A Difference?

...we Die, We Turn, We Are Reborn As We Deserve To Be Reborn, Based On Our Doings In This World." Will Looked Down At His Bitten Nails. "i Will Probably Be Reborn As A Slug That Someone Salts.

Mene Mene Tekel Upsharin,' Jace Said With A Faint Smile. 'you Don't Recognize It? It's From The Bible, Vampire. The Old One. That's Your Book, Isn't It?' Just Because I'm Jewish Doesn't Mean I've Memorized The Old Testament.' It's The Writing On The Wall. "god Hath Numbered Thy Kingdom, And Brought It To An End; Thou Art Weighed In The Balance And Found Wanting." It's A Portent Of Doom--it Means The End Of An Empire.

No One Blames Her." "that Never Matters," Said Alec. "not When You Blame Yourself.

One Of The Things He'd Always Loved About Clary Was How Easily Caught Up In Her Imagination She Was, How Easily She Could Wall Herself Away In Illusory Worlds Of Curses And Princes And Destiny And Magic.

There Might Not Be So Much Of A Difference Between The Side Of Light And The Side Of Dark As You Suppose. After All, Without The Dark, There Is Nothing For The Light To Burn Away.

He Didn't Know What Books Meant To Her, That Books Were Symbols Of Truth And Meaning.

Oooh, That Was Fun." "that Does It," Said Jace. "i'm Going To Get You A Dictionary For Christmas This Year." "why?" Isabelle Said. "so You Can Look Up 'fun.' I'm Not Sure You Know What It Means." Isabelle Pulled The Long Heavy Mass Of Her Wet Hair Forward And Wrung It Out As If It Were Wet Washing. "you're Raining On My Parade." "it's A Pretty Wet Parade Already, If You Hadn't Noticed." Jace Glanced Around.

So Here’s Where They Put You. I Didn’t Think They Even Used These Cells Anymore.” He Glanced Sideways. “i Got The Wrong Window At First. Gave Your Friend In The Next Cell Something Of A Shock. Attractive Fellow, What With The Beard And The Rags. Kind Of Reminds Me Of The Street Folk Back Home.

Jace: "i Guess We Better Move The Trash. We Can Start With The Dumpster," Looking Unenthusiastic. Clary: "you'd Rather Face A Ravening Horde Of Demons, Wouldn't You?" Jace: "at Least They Wouldn't Be Crawling With Maggots. Well, Not Most Of Them, Anyway. There Was This One Demon, Once, That I Tracked Down To The Sewers Under Grand Central--" Clary: "don't. I'm Not Really In The Mood Right Now." Jace: "that's Got To Be The First Time A Girl's Ever Said That To Me." Clary: "stick With Me And It Won't Be The Last.

Anyone That Looked Like That Wouldn't Need To Tie Up Girls And Imprison Them In Order To Get Them To Marry Him

Will Looking After Her, Sighed.not For Her, He Said Under His Breath, Though There Was No One To Hear Him, For Me.... And He Leaned His Head Against The Cold Iron Gate.

He Cocked His Head To The Side. "did He Die Well?" "he Died Screaming." Charlotte's Bluntness Startled Tessa. "what A Beautiful Thing To Hear.

Something Inside Clary Cracked And Broke, And Words Came Pouring Out. 'what Do You Want Me To Tell You? The Truth? The Truth Is That I Love Simon Like I Should Love You, And I Wish He Was My Brother And You Weren't, But I Can't Do Anything About That And Neither Can You!

Sometimes Carrying The Burden Of An Upsetting Truth, And Hiding It, Is Actually A Gift You Give To Someone Else. You Bear That Burden, So They Don’t Have To, In A Situation Where Telling Them Will Change Nothing.

He Found Himself Wanting To Write Poetry About How Her Blue Eyes Were Like Starlight And Her Hair Like Night, Because "night" And "starlight" Rhymed, But He Had A Feeling The Poem Wouldn't Turn Out That Well.

A Shadowhunter I Believe You Know Send For Me—tatiana Blackthorn? The Lady Used To Be A Lightwood, Did She Not?" Magnus Turned To Will. "and Your Sister Cecily Married Her Brother. Gilbert. Gaston. I Have A Shocking Memory For Lightwoods." "i Begged Cecily Not To Throw Herself Away On A Lightworm," Will Muttered.

There Is No Cure For Fictional Character Love, But The Plus Side Is That It Is An Entirely Benign Disease With No Bad Side Effects.

You Are The Central Point About Which His World Spins.

So You Are Dying For Love, Then," Will Said Finally, His Voice Sounding Constricted To His Own Ears. 'dying A Little Faster For Love. And There Are Worse Things To Die For.

She Smiled At Him. “how Did You Know Just What I’d Want To See?” “how Could I Not?” He Said. “when I Think Of You, And You Are Not There, I See You In My Mind’s Eye Always With A Book In Your Hand.” He Looked Away From Her As He Said It, But Not Before She Caught The Slight Flush On His Cheekbones. He Was So Pale, He Could Never Hide Even The Least Blush, She Thought — And Was Surprised How Affectionate The Thought Was.

I Guess It’s True What They Say," Observed Jace. "there Are No Straight Men In The Trenches." "that’s Atheists, Jackass," Said Simon Furiously. "there Are No Atheists In The Trenches.

When I Think Of You, And You Are Not There, I See You In My Mind's Eye Always With A Book In Your Hand.

That Sounds Almost Practiced, James Carstairs. How Many Girls Have You Made Swoon With That Observation?" "there Is Only One Girl I Care To Make Swoon," He Said. "the Question Is, Does She?" She Smiled At Him. "she Does.

Maybe. Although I Doubt Most Shadowhunters Get A Tattoo Of Donatello From The Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles On Their Left Shoulder.

She Pulled Away. "that Doesn't Make Any Sense." "neither Does This," He Said, "but I Don't Care. I'm Sick Of Trying To Pretend I Can Live Without You. Don't You Understand That? Can't You See It's Killing Me?

You Are In Love And You Think That Is All There Is In The World. But The World Is Bigger Than You, Will, And May Have Need Of You. You Are A Shadowhunter. You Serve A Greater Cause. Your Life Is Not Yours To Throw Away.

I Would Say It Was Nice To Meet You, But The Fact Is It Wasnt. In Fact, It Was Quite Awkward.

I Was Marked By A Very Cute Boy With Terrible Impulse Control. I Don't Remember Because I Was Basically Unconscious But Everyone Was Mad At Him When I Woke Up. The End, Love Clary.

Impulse Control

You And Jace – You’re Not Quite Normal, Are You? I Mean, Not Normal Shadowhunters. There’s Something Special About You Both. Like The Seelie Queen Said. You Were Experiments.” He Smiled At Her Startled Look. “i’m Not Stupid. I Can Put These Things Together. You With Your Rune Powers, And Jace, Well…no One Could Be That Annoying Without Some Kind Of Supernatural Assistance.

Will Bounded Up Onto One Of The Ladders And Yanked A Book Off The Shelf. "i'll Find You Something Else To Read. Catch." He Had Let It Fall Without Looking And Tessa Had To Dart Forward To Seize It Before It Hit The Floor. - Clockwork Angel

My Ideas Often Come From Strong Mental Images. When I'm Observing Some Relatively Ordinary Thing, I'll Think, "what If...." And Out Of That Brainstorming A Story Emerges.

I Have A Suggestion," Said Valentine To Luke, In A Surprisingly Even Tone. "let Me Guess," Said Luke. "it's 'don't Kill Me,' Isn't It?

If You Knew How To Cook, Maybe I Would Eat," Jace Muttered. Isabelle Froze, Her Spoon Poised Dangerously. "what Did You Say?" Jace Edged Toward The Fridge. "i Said I'm Going To Look For A Snack To Eat." That's What I Thought You Said." Isabelle Turned Her Attention To The Soup.

Magnus Had A List Of Favored Traits In A Partner-black Hair, Blue Eyes, Honest.

He Made A Sound Like A Choked Laughed Before He Reached Out And Pulled Her Into Her Arms. She Was Aware Of Luke Watching Them From The Window, But She Shut Her Eyes Resolutely And Buried Her Face Against Jace's Shoulder. He Smelled Of Salt And Blood, And Only When His Mouth Came Close To Her Ear Did She Understand What He Was Saying, And It Was The Simplest Litany Of All: Her Name, Just Her Name.

Or Maybe It's Just That Beautiful Things Are So Easily Broken By The World.

Because That Was What You Did With Family When You'd Been Worried About Them, You Grabbed Them And Held On To Them And Told Them How Much They'd Pissed You Off, And It Was Okay, Because No Matter How Angry You Got, They Still Belonged To You.

I Love You, Clary Wanted To Say. And, I Would Do It Again. I Would Always Ask For You.

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