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Once When I Was Ninth Grade I Had To Write A Paper On A Poem. One Of The Lines Was"if Your Eyes Weren't Open You Wouldn't Know The Difference Between Dreaming And Waking' It Hadn't Meant Meant Much To Me At The Time. After All There'd Been A Guy In The Class That I Liked So How Could I Be Expected To Pay Attention To Literary Analysis? Now Three Year Later I Understand The Poem Perfectly.

-Richelle Mead

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Richelle Mead

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Once When I Was Ninth Grade I Had To Write A Paper On A Poem. One Of The Lines Was"if Your Eyes Weren't Open You Wouldn't Know The Difference Between Dreaming And Waking' It Hadn't Meant Meant Much To Me At The Time. After All There'd Been A Guy In The Class That I Liked So How Could I Be Expected To Pay Attention To Literary Analysis? Now Three Year Later I Understand The Poem Perfectly.

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What's Your Name?" What?" I Asked, Squinting At The Light. Your Name." I Reconized Dr. Olendzki Peering Over Me. You Know My Name." I Want You To Tell Me." Rose. Rose Hathaway." Do You Know Your Birthday?" Of Course I Do. Why Are You Asking Me Such Stupid Things? Did You Lose My Records?" Dr. Olendzki Gave An Exasperated Sigh And Walked Off, Taking The Annoying Light With Her. "i Think She's Fine.

Everyone Has Light Around Them, Except For You. You Have Shadows.

Did You Follow Me From The Party?" "yes" "i Didn't Even Know You Were There." His Dark Clothes Indicated He Must Have Been On Guardian Duty At The Party. "so You Saw The Illustrious Janine Cause A Commotion By Dragging Me Out." "it Wasn't A Commotion. Hardly Anyone Noticed. I Saw Because I Was Watching You.

I Couldn't Stop Staring At The Cave, Back Where Dimitri Was, Back Where Half Of My Soul Was.

Nah. I’m A Consultant, Of Course. Everyone’s Favorite Nondescript Yet Well-paid White-collar Job.

Things Die. But They Don't Always Stay Dead. Believe Me, I Know.

So That's How You're Going To Fix The Family Problem. Little Dragomirs. Good Idea.

Family Problems

What's Purple Mean?" Adrian Put His Hand On The Door. "gotta Go, Sage. Dont Want To Keep Dorothy Waiting

Culinary Science? You Elected Culinary Science? That's The Most Brainless Class Ever. -rose To Christian

You're Burned Into My Mind Forever

Everything‟s Fine,” I Said, With A Tight Smile. “kiyo Was Just Giving Me His Latest Explanation About How My Son Is A Terror To Be Feared.” Dorian Scoffed. “little Thundro? A Terror? Hardly, Unless Perhaps We‟re Discussing Diapers.

Where Are The Dogs?" I Asked. "at Training," He Said. "i Have A Friend Who's An Expert Dog Trainer, And He's Giving Them Some Stealth Lessons. He Used To Work For A Local K-9 Unit." I Didn't Think It Was In The Chihuahua Genetic Code To Ever Be Stealthy.

I Nearly Dropped The Plate I Held. "you've Asked Me Out Tons Of Times." "not Really. I've Made Inapproprite Suggestions And Frequently Pushed For Nudity. But I've Never Asked You Out On A Real Date. And, If Memory Serves, You Did Say You'd Give Me A Fair Chance Once I Let You Clean Out My Trust Fund." "i Didn't Clean It Out," I Scoffed.

Adrian Ordered A Martini, Earning Disapproving Looks From His Father And Me. "it's Barely Noon," Said Nathan. "i Know," Said Adrian. "i'm Surprised I Held Out That Long Too.

We Can't Stop Living Because Other People Are Dead.

We Can Be Together, Rose. Soon. We're Almost There. And Nothing Will Ever Keep Us Apart.

I'm Telling You, I Wanted To. But I Was Trapped. You Of All People Should Know What It's Like Being Caught Between Groups

I Don’t Belong To Anyone. I Make My Own Choices." "and You’re With Adrian," Said Dimitri. "but I Was Meant For You.

It Wasn't The Kind Of Touch That Said, Hey, I've Got A Plan, So Hang In There Because We're Going To Get Out Of This. It Was More Like The Kind Of Touch That Simply Said, You Aren't Alone. It Was Really The Only Thing He Could Offer. And In That Moment, It Was Enough.

Turning Away, I Stared At The Long Road Winding Off Ahead Of Me. I Sighed. This Trip Might Take Awhile. "then Start Walking, Rose," I Muttered To Myself. I Set Off, Off To Kill The Man I Loved.

What Are You, Rose Hathaway? Are You Real? You're A Dream Within A Dream. I'm Afraid Touching You Will Make Me Wake Up. You'll Disappear.

Rose Only Hangs Out With Guys And Psychopaths," Said Mia. "well," He Said Cheerfully, "since I'm Both A Psychopath And A Guy, That Would Explain Why We're Such Good Friends.

Different Time, Different Place,” I Said. “things Can Change. People Can Change.

The Tension Between Us Kicked Up A Notch, And I Realized That Along With Our Bodies Being Nearer, So Were Our Lips.

It Was Nice To See Someone Who Appreciated Her For Her Character, No Matter How Disgusted Christian Was By The Idea Of Anyone Dating His Aunt. And I Actually Kind Of Liked Seeing Christian So Obviously Tormented. It Was Good For Him.

I've Heard That The Soul Often Recognizes Truth When It Hears It, Even If The Mind Does Not.

This Isn't A Christmas Special! This Is My Life. In The Real World, Miracles And Goodness Just Don't Happen.

Moroi Shied From The Sunlight But As I Watched Sydney, I Knew Without A Doubt That Humans Had Been Made For The Sun.

You Need Me? You Yell. You Want To Leave? We Go. I'll Get You Out Of Here, No Matter What.

Immortals Are, By Definition, Immortal. End Of Story.

But I Didn't Know About The Other Story." "what Other Story?” "about How You And Adrian Ivashkov Are—" "no, Whatever You Heard It’s Not True." "but It Was Really Romantic" "then It’s Definitely Not True.

Really Romantic

God, I Got Lucky. If I'd Hurt It, It Would Have Put Me Out Of Practice For A While.” Smiling, He Returned To His Chair. "i Know. You Kept Telling Me That While I Was Carrying You. You Were Very Upset.” "you...you Carried Me Here?” "after We Broke The Bench Apart And Freed Your Foot.” Man. I'd Missed Out On A Lot. The Only Thing Better Than Imagining Dimitri Carrying Me In His Arms Was Imagining Him Shirtless While Carrying Me In His Arms.

I Can Be A Good Friend, Or A Bad Enemy.

Because It's One Of Those Things I Never Expected In My Lifetime," He Told Me. "like A Comet. Or World Peace. I'm Just Used To You Being Single." For Some Reason, That Bothered Me. "what, You Don't Think Any Guy Would Ever Be Interested In Me?" Actually," Said Adrian, Sounding Remarkably Serious, "i Can Imagine Lots Of Guys Being Interested In You.

I Thought Alchemists Avoided Alcohol The Same Way They Do Primary Colors.

And Sometimes, If I Was Really, Really Lucky, He’d Smile At Me. A Real Smile, Too—not The Dry One That Accompanied The Sarcasm We Tossed Around So Often. I Didn’t Want To Admit It To Anyone—not To Lissa, Not Even To Myself—but Some Days, I Lived For Those Smiles.

Adrian: I Can Visit People In Their Dreams. Christian: Stop. I Can Feel There Is A Comment Coming On About How Women Already Dream About You. I Just Ate, You Know.

It Was Impossible To Get The Dimitri And Tasha Thing Out Of My Head, But At Least Packing And Getting Ready Made Sure I Didn't Devote 100 Percent Of My Brain Power To Him. More Like 95 Percent.

Ooh. Top Secret Angel Business, Huh? What’re You Going To Do? Dance On A Pinhead? Lobby For National Cute Puppy Day?

Knowing Lissa Missed Me Hurt Almost More Than If She'd Completely Written Me Off. I'd Never Wanted To Hurt Her. Even When I'd Resented Her For Feeling Like She Was Controlling My Life, I'd Never Hated Her. I Loved Her Like A Sister And Couldn't Stand The Thought Of Her Suffering Now On My Behalf. How Had Things Gotten So Screwed Up Between Us?

When I Talked To Him Earlier, He Said He Had To Work Tonight,” Peter Explained, “but That We Should Go Ahead And Draw For Him.” “draw?” I Asked Uneasily. “oh Lord. Tell Me It’s Not Pictionary Night Too.” Peter Sighed Wearily. “draw For Secret Santas. Do You Even Read The E-mails I Send?” “secret Santas? Seems Like We Just Did That,” I Said. “yeah, A Year Ago,” Said Peter. “just Like We Do Very Christmas.

Her Eyes Flicked Over The Cards, Looked At Dimitri, Then Looked Back At The Cards. Her Expression Was Blank. "you Will Lose What You Value Most, So Treasure It While You Can." She Pointed To The Wheel Of Fortune Card. "the Wheel Is Turning, Always Turning.

Don’t Take The High Ground And Assume You Already Know What You’ll Do. The Truth Is, When It Comes To Someone You Love, You’ll Find There Isn’t Anything You Won’t Do.

I Knew You Were A Badass," Continued Adrian. "but I Didn't Realize Just How Much Until I Saw You Dropping Guardians Out There." "does That Mean You're Going To Be Nicer To Me?" I Teased. "i'm Already Nice To You," He Said Loftily. "do You Know How Badly I Want A Cigarette Right Now? But No. I Manfully Suffer Through Nicotine Withdrawal—all For You.

Thanks For Looking Out For Her, Sage. You're Okay. For A Human." I Almost Laughed. "thanks." "you Can Say It Too, You Know." I Walked Over To Latte And Paused. "say What?" "that I'm Okay...for A Vampire," He Explained. I Shook My Head, Still Smiling. "you'll Have A Hard Time Getting Any Alchemist To Admit That. But I Can Say You're Okay For An Irreverent Party Boy With Occasional Moments Of Brilliance." "brilliant? You Think I'm Brilliant?" He Threw His Hands Skyward. "you Hear That, World? Sage Says I'm Brilliant.

She Has Very Strong Ideas About Family - Ideas That Probably Sound Kind Of Sexist To You. She Believes All Dhampirs Should Train And Put In Time As Guardians, But That The Women Should Eventually Return Home To Raise Their Children Together. But Not The Men? No, He Said Wryly. She Thinks Men Still Need To Stay Out There And Kill Strigoi.

Wow. What'd He Do To Deserve That? Rescue Orphans From A Burning Building? If So, You Might Want To Make Sure He Didn't Set The Building On Fire In The First Place.

I've Heard A Lot About You, Rose. Don't Worry. It Was All Good." "no, It Wasn't.

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