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All This Time…ever Since I Sold My Soul, I’ve Been Clinging To This Idea That There Is Something Pure And Decent Out There. That There Was Something To Give Me Hope That Even If I Was A Lost Cause, At Least There Was Something Bright And Good In The World. But There Isn’t. If There Was, Seth Wouldn’t Have Fallen. Erik Wouldn’t Have Died. Andrea Mortensen Wouldn’t Be Dying.” -georgina To Carter

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All This Time…ever Since I Sold My Soul, I’ve Been Clinging To This Idea That There Is Something Pure And Decent Out There. That There Was Something To Give Me Hope That Even If I Was A Lost Cause, At Least There Was Something Bright And Good In The World. But There Isn’t. If There Was, Seth Wouldn’t Have Fallen. Erik Wouldn’t Have Died. Andrea Mortensen Wouldn’t Be Dying.” -georgina To Carter

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Rose, I'm An Addict With No Work Ethic Who Is Likely Going To Go Insane. I'm Not Like You. I'm Not A Super-hero." "not Yet," I Said.

The Ghost Of A Smile Flickered Across His Lips. ‘you’re Always The Voice Of Reason. Just Try Listening To Yourself Once In A While.

I Set Off, Off To Kill The Man I Love.

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Vladimir Did Great Things—so Could She. Besides, They Come First, Right?" "not Always." I Stared. I'd Had They Come First Drilled Into Me Since I Was A Child. It Was What All Guardians Believed. Only The Dhampirs Who'd Run Away From Their Duty Didn't Subscribe To That. What He Said Was Almost Like Treason. "sometimes, Rose, You Have To Know When To Put Yourself First.

Is He... Is Dimitri A Strigoi?" Mason Hesitated Only A Moment, Like He Was Afraid To Answer Me, And Then—he Nodded. My Heart Shattered. My World Shattered.

I've Given Up On You...love Fades. Mine Has.

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Don't Beat Yourself Up Over What You Could Have Or Should Have Done. The Past Is Gone. Move On To The Future.

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Setting Out Around Midnight, I Couldn't Help Shaking My Head, "we're The Goddamned Hottest Vampire Hunters Ever." I Muttered.

I’m Still Here, Still In Love With You, And Care About You More Than Any Other Guy Ever Will." -adrian-

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But I Couldn't Help Myself, Couldn't Help The Way I Felt As I Recalled The Bliss And Rush Of A Vampire's Bite.

Ian’s The Black Sheep.” “i Thought I Was The Black Sheep,” Said Seth, Sounding Almost Hurt. “no. You’re The Unfocused Artistic One. I’m The Responsible One. Ian’s The Wild, Hedonistic One.” “what’s Hedonistic?” Asked Kendall. Her Father Considered. “it Means You Run Up A Lot Of Credit Card Bills You Can’t Pay, Change Jobs A Lot, And Have A Lot Of…lady Friends.

Piece Of Heaven?" "no, That Other Place I'm Going To Go To For Thinking What I'm Thinking.

See? There It Is Again. My Flame In The Dark.

Can We Go Back To The Part About Moroi Girls Hanging Out In La?" Asked Adrian Hopefully. "can You Direct Me To Some Of The…oh, Let’s Say, More Open-minded Ones?

You Got Some Cheap Foreign Labor To Protect Lissa?

You Look Confused," Said Adrian. I Shook My Head And Sighed. "i Think I'm Just Overthinking Things." He Nodded Solemnly. "that's Why I Try To Never Do It.

Bringing Children Into It Was Just Low, I Decided. At Least Heʹd Left Puppies Out.

Brayden Met My Eyes. His Were Hazel, Almost Like Eddie’s But With A Little Green. Not As Much Green As Adrian’s, Of Course. No One’s Eyes Were That Amazingly Green.

I Can't Believe You've Been Here All Day And Didn't Come Visit. ", Tatiana Said. "aw, I Figured You Had More Important Things To Do Than See Me, " Adrian Told Her. "besides, I Quit Smoking, So Now We Won't Be Able To Go Sneak Cigarettes Out Behind The Throne Room Together. " "adrian!" Chastised Nathan, Turning Bright Red. It Occurred To Me Then That I Could Have Based A Drinking Game Around How Many Times He Exclaimed His Son's Name Disapprovingly.

Whereas Angeline's Antics Made Me Want To Pull Out My Hair Sometimes, Trey Found Them Endearing.

There Was A Lot Of Apologizing Going On, But I Realized That Was How It Was With People You Cared About. You Forgave Each Other And Moved On.

Both Christian And Adrian Had Worried There Would Be Some Piece Of Strigoi Left In Him, But Their Fears Had Been About Violence And Bloodshed. No One Would Have Guessed This: That Living As A Strigoi Had Hardened His Heart, Killing Any Chance Of Him Loving Anyone. Killing Any Chance Of Him Loving Me. And I Was Pretty Sure That If That Was The Case, Then Part Of Me Would Die Too.

She Is Mine, And I Am Hers.

You Have The Patience Of A Saint," I Grumbled, Slouching Into A Chair. "and Besides, You Don't Hang Out With Him 24/7." "neither Will You. It's Only 24/6." "same Difference. It Might As Well Be 24/10." She Frowned. "that Doesn't Make Any Sense.

When I Talked To Him Earlier, He Said He Had To Work Tonight,” Peter Explained, “but That We Should Go Ahead And Draw For Him.” “draw?” I Asked Uneasily. “oh Lord. Tell Me It’s Not Pictionary Night Too.” Peter Sighed Wearily. “draw For Secret Santas. Do You Even Read The E-mails I Send?” “secret Santas? Seems Like We Just Did That,” I Said. “yeah, A Year Ago,” Said Peter. “just Like We Do Very Christmas.

Yeah. Rose." Jill Sighed And Stared Vacantly Ahead. "she's All He Sees When He Closes His Eyes. Flashing Dark Eyes And A Body Full Of Fire And Energy. No Matter How Much He Tries To Forget Her, No Matter How Much He Drinks . . . She's Always There. He Can't Escape Her.

..sage Is Convinced One Extraneous Calorie Will Make Her Go From Super Skinny To Just Regular Skinny. Tragedy.

"she Was Right About Something Else Too," Dimitri Said After A Long Pause. My Back Was To Him, But There Was A Strange Quality To His Voice That Made Me Turn Around. "what's That?" I Asked. "that I Do Still Love You." With That One Sentence, Everything In The Universe Changed.

Thatʹs A Dangerous Look,ʺ Said Dimitri, Giving Me A Brief Glance Before Returning His Eyes To The Road. ʺwhat Look?ʺ I Asked Innocently. ʺthe One That Says You Just Got Some Idea.

I Was So Tired Of Being Told Reasonable, Practical Things Whenever Something Went Wrong With My Life.

Even Christian—the Poster Child For "smartass"—looked Grim.

The Future Of Our Relationship Hinged On Advice From A Fifteen-year Old Girl, A Probably Untrue Story From A One-eyed Chihuahua Trainer, And Me Unromantically – Yet Skillfully – Kissing You On Top Of Silverware And China?

Well, I Guess I Can Wait Two Weeks Then." "for What?" "to Ask Her Out

It’s Okay. Everything’s Going To Be Okay. You Can Let Go Of The Sword." "i Can’t. I Can’t Leave Him Alone. I Have To Protect Him." "you Have.

Of Course I Can Climb It. I'm Practically A Progidy In Pe," I Pointed Out. "the Question Is, Can You, Mr Smoker?

Yes, Roza. I Did Want You. I Still Do. I Wish... We Could Be Together. -dimitri To Rose On Their Relationship

This Is Very Domestic Of You," He Said. "it's Kinda Hot, Really. Giving Me All Sorts Of Fantasies About You In An Apron Vacuuming My House.

But It's Not The Name I'd Give To A Conqueror Of Worlds... I Would've Gone With Thundro Or Ragnor. I Might Just Call Him Thundro Anyway.

I Knew You Were A Badass," Continued Adrian. "but I Didn't Realize Just How Much Until I Saw You Dropping Guardians Out There." "does That Mean You're Going To Be Nicer To Me?" I Teased. "i'm Already Nice To You," He Said Loftily. "do You Know How Badly I Want A Cigarette Right Now? But No. I Manfully Suffer Through Nicotine Withdrawal—all For You.

My Heart Shattered. My World Shattered

I Love Pity Parties. I Wish I'd Brought Hats.

I’m Not A Warrior Or A Goddess,” I Said At Last. Adrian Leaned Closer. “as Far As I’m Concerned, You’re Both.

So That's How You're Going To Fix The Family Problem. Little Dragomirs. Good Idea.

Family Problems

... Imperfection Would Get Me Farther Than Perfection.

I Left The Clinic In A Daze That Had Nothing To Do With My Head Injury. Clear Up In A Week Or So? How Could Dr. Olendzki Speak So Lightly About This? I Was Going To Look Like A Mutant For Christmas And Most Of The Ski Trip. I Had A Black Eye. A Freaking Black Eye. And My Mother Had Given It To Me.

No," He Said, Voice Thick And Husky. His Fingers Dug Into The Chair's Arms. "you'd Better Not Get Too Close." I Stopped, Laughing Softly. "you Don't Strike Me As The Assaulting Type, Mortensen." "yeah, Well, There's A First Time For Everything.

If I Was Drunk, I Wouldn’t Be Here At All. And Really, This Is Pretty Good For Four White Russians.” “white What?” I Almost Sat Down But Was Afraid The Chair Might Dematerialize Beneath Me. “it’s A Drink,” He Said. “you’d Think I Wouldn’t Be Into Something Named That—you Know, Considering My Own Personal Experience With Russians. But They’re Surprisingly Delicious. The Drinks, Not Real Russians.

It’s Easy To Want Peace And Love In Hypothetical Situations—then Reality Sets In, And Sometimes We Have To Do What’s Ugly.

Jill Was Tall And Slim, Like Most Moroi. With That Figure Came A Modest Chest. Angeline's Chest...was Not So Modest.

So. Are You Guys Here To Convert Me Or Sell Me Siding?

If She Just Wanted To Come Home At Night To Eye Candy With Good Hair, I Could Probably Be That Reasonably Well.

Then, As One Hand Tightened On Me And His Other Ran Gently Over My Hair, I Noticed Something. He Didn't Smell Right.

I'm Backing Down Now. I Really Do Love You. That's Why I'm Doing This.

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No One Was Normal, Not Really.

My Captivity With Dimitri. The Way His Mouth—so, So Warm, Despite His Cold Skin—had Kissed Mine. The Feel Of His Fangs Pressing Into My Neck And The Sweet Bliss That Followed... He Looked Exactly The Same Too, With That Chalky White Pallor And Red-ringed Eyes That So Conflicted With The Soft, Chin-length Brown Hair And Otherwise Gorgeous Lines Of His Face. He Even Had A Leather Duster On.

Then It's Settled," I Said. "we'll Do A Dream Conference Call." That Love And Rapture Faltered. "wait. How Is It Settled? How Did We Go From Me Declaring My Love For You To Me Being Okay With A Dream?" "it's Adrian Ivashkov Logic. Don't Try To Understand It. Just Roll With It.

He Leaned Closer To Me And Then Seemed Shocked As He Realized What He Was Doing. "why Would You Do That? Why Would You Do That For Me?

It Was Something Of A Mystery How A Couple Of Teenage Girls Had Managed To Escape Detection For Two Years, Especially When One Of Them Was A Privileged Moroi Princess And The Other A Delinquent Dhampir With A Disciplinary File So Long That It Broke School Records.

At The Same Time, We Both Pulled Back Briefly Still Oh So Close. Everything In The Word Rested On That Moment. "we Can't..." He Told Me. "i Know," I Agreed. Then His Mouth Was On Mine Again, And This Time I Knew There Would Be No Turning Back.

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